I’m so broke! I didn’t get paid what I thought I would, and now I’m definitely fucked. I’ll sell some of my things to get myself back into the green. But importantly, it isn’t because I don’t have any money that I’m broke; I’m broke because I keep spending all my money irresponsibly! I live a lifestyle funded by irresponsible spending. Fuck.
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Sculptural photoraphy is awesome, and probably the future of something.
Sorry for the nichelessness of the blog, I’m gonna tighten the focus as I write.
Sitting here reading a post by Tynan while watching Bernie Mac I was thinking, so what if Tynan ends up with a billion dollars and a submarine (I’m sure he will), if he doesn’t become as famous as Bernie Mac. But then I realized that Tynan and fellow internet awesome-doers (cewebrities?) Chris Guillebeau, Charlie Hoehn, and Ramit Sethi are famous with an entirely new and rapidly growing crowd of their own, and none of them would want to live in Bernie Mac’s huge house anyway (Tynan chose a Winnebago Rialta). The culture-that-be isn’t going anywhere soon, but this new cultural wave of the upwardly-awesome and ingenious is going to end up on top one day, and I for one am down.
I found out about Chris Guillebeau through the IWTYTBR Financial 6-week bootcamp where he did an awesome live webcast. Checked out his blog, and he’s a genius on unconventional living and “travel-hacking.” One of his FREE pdf books is A Brief Guide to World Domination, where he just lays it out (I’m not finished reading it yet, but it’s short).
He asks The Two Most Important Questions in the Universe, and I’m gonna try to answer them.
#1: What do you really want to get out of life?
Used to be the military, but now I’ve got a few things I’m sure about.
- Travel free, observe the world at work with no strings attached and see what makes people tick. Perfect my own philosophy. This involves paying my debt.
- Start a business (I’ve got an idea, but it’s a secret!) Maybe get some of my inventions into production.
- Live unconventionally, not buying a house but maybe joining (maybe even starting) a little yurt community, to save on mortgage and get away from silly consumerism
- Perfect my “kit,” all the physical possessions I need to get by (wait for this in another post!)
- Really get discipline and spirituality in my life; I’ve been looking hard at Buddhism because I’m beginning to really see the importance of awareness to me, and looking at aikido for tons of reasons, a big one being able to peacefully, confidently and (gulp) lovingly diffuse a conflict.
- Wow, I think there are more. But most important really is the kit, so I can feel self-sufficient and materially fulfilled, and then financial freedom.
#2: What can you offer the world that no one else can?
Alright, good question. First thing, I love construction-work, doing carpentry is something I totally dig on. I’d love to travel the world doing it, and I can’t see myself getting sick of it. I can’t see myself ending up stuck in a cubicle either, so this would be good for that.
I’m not scared to make sacrifices and big changes, or big risks if I have to. Very adventurous, not scared to work hard, and I’m driven. So I could do a physical, fast-paced job outdoors not many people are willing to do, and do the mental part of it. I think project manager would suit me better than computer programmer.
ON with the ebook, and then we’ll see what’s up.
http://chrisguillebeau.com/3×5/
What am I doing with my life?
Literal answer: St. John’s College doing the whole history of Western thought. Being very short on money in order to do what someone else wants.
And that’s fine! This kind of thing (I think) has probably made all of the great brains whose books I’m paying copiously to read. But at the same time, I cringe at this kind of continued placid obedience. I want to read the books I want to read, damnit!
But every paper I write shows how far I need to go in the life of the mind, and that I can’t just expect to tap into some great reservoir of random talent… and still expect to be understood by the kind of people who go to this school.
What I want is to liquidate my car, motorcycle and almost all of my possessions, then use the money to round out a kit: a backpack, couple changes of technical clothes, and all the essentials that’ll fit into about 28 liters, a Hennessy Hammock, and a folding bike from Bike Friday. AND THEN I want to work enough to pay off $15k in loans, and then be free to vagabond without restraint, in passionate search of meaningful and singular experiences. I want to experience total freedom from which to observe the motions of humanity in an original way. I just wanna be free. But more than that, I want that thanatos; part of me wants that thrill of death, the kinda thought/feeling you experience when you almost slip off a rock-face or barely miss getting hit by a car. Those can, well, kill you, but at the same time you spend the rest of your hours feeling satisfied in your desire and proximity to dying in nasty ways, and can more fully appreciate life.
My desires’re calling! Should I head off into the wild blue yonder, or spend two more years beneath the yoke of a Classical education?
